I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky…..
This popular song from the 90´s was one of my favourites when I was 29.
I always loved music and still do. Though sometimes we’d be joking around and saying: “maybe he should stay away from the drugs”, I still loved the lyrics and the feel of the song. It made me happy and a little sad at the same time. I guess all the good ones do. That’s why most people listen to sad songs when they feel bad. It makes them feel like the song was written just for them.
I know that’s how I felt a lot of the time. When I was a kid, I was a bit of a loner, never had many friends. I always listened to music but all my favourite ones where the ballads, the ones that made you think. That didn´t exactly make me any more popular.
Growing up in the 80s I still rather listened to songs from Neil Diamond or Cristopher Cross than Queen and AC/DC.
Don’t get me wrong, I really listened to everything on the radio, but most of the time I didn’t have a clue who was singing and I never had a favourite band. The concept of fandom was and in a way still is not my thing. I listen to all kinds of music, just as long as it makes me feel something.
I just liked the songs no matter who sung them. So,because I couldn’t afford to buy records, I usually just sat in front of the radio and mixed my own tapes, hoping for the DJ to keep his or her mouth shut so I could get the whole song.
My prized possession was my twin-deck recorder, and I loved mixing my own tapes. The best times I had when my older brother held parties in the cellar, I got to spend time behind the bar, and the morning after, he left his record-collection behind and I got to spend a couple of hours going through them and mixing a new tape.
Music was my first love, and I used the tapes to memorize songs and that is one reason why my english improved rapidly. I probably drove my brother crazy when I was singing my favourite songs over and over until I new them by heart.
Nowadays, I still love music and I still love to sing, but I don´t get to do it as often as I would like to. I used to go out once a week to do a bit of karaoke ( actually a lot of karaoke ;), on a good night I sang at least 10 songs until my voice was completely gone) I think I didn´t do too badly, once I got over the first bit of stage-fright,there was no stopping me lol. My secret dream always was to sing in a band, but I never had the courage to try.
Lately, I don´t go out anymore, mostly because of my health problems, and the only chance of singing I get is when I am alone in the car. I don´t really listen to music much. My husbands and my taste in music are quite different and he doesn´t really like it when I sing along. But I guess I should change that. Singing is good for the soul, it relieves pain and it is a mood enhancer.
I believe I will start today…..