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It´s been a long long time…

Hi there,

I wish everybody a happy new year!

I know I haven´t been here in a long time, but one of my new years resolutions was that I want to write more regularly.


Last time, I showed you the unfinished piece my daughter and me had started for my mum. I am glad to tell you that we finished it in time and we even got it framed ready for her birthday.

She really loves it and it has taken pride of place in her dining room. And I must say it looks stunning 🙂

So it was all worth it in the end. Not that I ever doubted that for a minute. 😉

I hope I will stick to my promise to keep this blog going a bit more regularly. Hopefully see you again soon!


The trials and tribulations of….



just a few quick words to let you know what´s going on.

I´ve been home for 3 days now, and as great as it is, it has been a bit of a struggle do get back into a routine.

I came home on tuesday morning and after cooking dinner first I had to see my gp. to let him know what had been going on, hand in all the paperwork from the hospital and the reha- clinic and get a prescription for physio.

Next I went to the pysio-therapist, who told me that they are booked solid, especially because the summer holidays start next week and a few of the therapists are on holiday. But I managed to get two appointments for next week and we will have to see from there.

Than I had to make a few phone-calls to see if there is any reha- sports groups in the area, and the one I found is booked out as well. It is really frustrating if you want to do something and people tell you that there is nothing they can do to help you. But I will keep trying, I have to do this so I can get fit for my second surgery.

The doctor in the clinic told me that I should wait at least 6 months before I even consider having the second knee done. Even though I was hoping to have it done a lot sooner, I decided that I will probably take his advice and rather try to lose some more weight until the end of the year, that would make everything so much easier. So far I have lost 34,6kg!!

I can´t believe that I have managed to lose so much weight in just about 6 months!

Admittedly the last 5 weeks where a bit slow, but that was due to hospital food, and lack of mobility, so now I am back on my own diet, I do my own cooking again, and that will help a lot. As you can see, I am still determined to do this!!!

Good night folks




Well folks,

what do you know, I´ve got a date for my operation!!!

I had an appointment at a different hospital this morning, and the doctor there was really nice. He took one look at my x-rays and had a quick look at my knee and the next question was”So when do you want to have the op?”

My answer obviously being:” As soon as possible”, he looked at his schedule and said:        ” will next week do?”

I was a bit shocked to be honest, but now I am really happy. And I am actually glad that I waited the 2months before I went to see another doctor, I feel so much better now, than I did in March, a lot stronger and more confident, and that can make a whole lot of difference with the recovery. Losing 30kg certainly doesn´t hurt either.

I hope I will be up and about in no time, especially because I should be able to use the leg straight after the op. I will be starting physio straight away and will be leaving the hospital after about 10 days if everything goes well. Then I will hopefully go to a reha-clinic, for a couple of weeks, to learn how to exercize with the new knee and learn to walk with it properly.

God, I will probably not sleep very well for the next week or so, lol, I am always a nervous wreck before things like this…

But who cares, I´m sure it will all go well.

Good night folks




The project

Hi Folks,

I promised that I would show off the whole project, and so here it is:



As you can see,(I hope 😉 ) it is a sampler with 4 different motifs and in the middle there is a gardener´s poem.

My daughter came up with the idea a couple of months ago, when she stumbled over the poem, and she thought it would be perfect for my mum who is an avid gardener.

She spends all her spare time in the garden, and can´t resist bying more flowers all the time, even though there is no room in the garden lol.

My daughter is doing the 2 pictures on the left, I am now starting on the second one on the right. We might still add my mum´s initials left and right, depends how long it will take us to finish everything else.

I just hope that my mum will like it, but I´m pretty sure she will….

Good night folks


Cheatday :D !!!

Today is a bank-holiday, the first of two here in Germany, so this is my chance for a good cheat-day. Especially because the scales where more than friendly to me this morning, for the first time it showed me that I have lost 30kg!!! Yeah, I can do it!!!

So, I made a nice cake for coffee and we will enjoy it with a lovely cup of tea in a couple of minutes.


And for tea tonight we will have Roastbeef with Yorkshire puddings, yummy!

Well, what can I say, it was delicious, there is just 2 pieces left, it just about melts in your mouth…. And that´s what it looks like on the inside:


Creamy cheesecake with a meringue topping, yuuuumy! 😉

Have a great weekend


A-Z Challenge day 14

4N for never too late to change….

I believe that with all my heart. Change is a natural thing, it happens all the time, sometimes gradually so you hardly notice, another time all of a sudden, you realize that something is unbearable and you have to do something now.

But it is hard to figure out what it is you want to change and how to change it.

And it is even harder to go through with it. As I keep finding out every day. But I’m working on it. An I will carry on no matter what.

I know I can do it if I really want.

love and light my friends…









Hello my friends!

A couple of days ago I was nominated for the Liebster award  by  dear fellow blogger Vikram Bishla and I would like to thank him for my first nomination. You can check out his blog here:

It took me a couple of days to consider what to write about and if I should actually accept it, but then I thought: Why not?


Here come the 11 questions from Vikram:

1.What is your most memorable moment?

I guess that´s not one but three moments the births of my three children. That where the most exiting and happy moments of my life.

2.The one thing you want to change in you?    

Probably my shyness and akwardness toward strangers and new situations. I hate meeting new people and it takes me ages to get comfortable around a new workplace for example. I wish I could be a bit more confident.

3.One thing that you want to change about your country?        

I guess we live in very difficult and exciting times, and I would like people to be more open to change and more welcoming of all the refugees that are coming to our country. I know that we have a minority that is very much against foreigners “invading” their lives and they are scared that they will cause problems. But the majority of us is very much trying to make it work. I wish we could persuade everybody to change their mind.  And I wish for the journalists to stop trying to manipulate people into so much hatred.

4. Are you an outsider or insider?    

I´m an insider in my family but I reckon I´m more of an outsider in general. I´m not really good at interacting with people, I´m an introvert so it is rather difficult to get involved. And I tend to overthink every decision I have to make,so most of the time I can´t make up my mind until it is too late…

5.Who is your favourite author?    

I have got a few. Stephen King is one of them, from childhood really. Piers Anthony is another, I love his Xanth Novels and the way he plays with puns.

6.What makes you angry?      

Homophobia of any kind makes me really angry. I think everybody should have the right to live their lifes anyway they want, and nobody should have the right to interfere.

7.How do you define success?      

I think success doesn´t depend on the amount of money you make or how many people work under you, what car you drive or how big your house is. But it should make a difference for yourself. If it makes you happy and you can´t think of any better way to spend your time then that´s a success. If you can look back at your life and be glad about the decisions you made, mistakes and all, that´s a success.

8.What is most important to you in life?            

My family for sure. My husband  and children, my mom and my brother, we all live in one big house together, and it can be messy and loud but we are always there for each other.

9.Which is your favourite genre of books?    

Horror and fantasy. And the occasional autobiography

10.What do you regret about your life?      

Maybe that I didn´t work harder in school, I never enjoyed it at all. I was always an outsider in school and book-learning was never my strong suit. Always more of a dreamer I guess…

11.What keeps you motivated?        

Yet again my family.  I have to try and get better to be there for them when they need me.

 11 random facts about me:      

1. I would love to sleep in on weekends but can´t really sleep more than 6 hours.

2.My favourite animals are elephants and horses.

3.I´m a sucker for hospital tv-shows.                                                                                          

4.I love cross-stitching but hate knitting and crocheting.                                                      

5.I am German but I hate Sauerkraut 😉                                                                                          

6.I love dogs but don´t have one anymore.                                                                                  

7.I love flowers but I hate gardening.                                                                                            

8.I love cake-decorating                                                                                                                      

9.I love singing.                                                                                                                                

10.I believe in love at first sight.                                                                                                    

11.I love books but hate comics.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

And here are my nominees :



James F. O´Neil

Mukthi Raja




Olive Ole

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           My questions for you are:                                                                                                                                                                               

1. When did you start blogging and why?

2.Who is your role-model?

3.What is your favourite book and why?

4.What country would you like to live in?

5.What is your greatest strength?

6.What do you fear most?

7.If you could be an animal, which one would it be and why?

8.What is most important to you in life?

9.What is your favourite movie?

10.What would you want to change in your life if you could?

11.What makes you angry?

Happy Easter!

Good afternoon to all of you out there!

How has your Easter weekend been so far? Over here in Germany the weather was quite a mix of lovely, sunny and nearly summerly temperatures on Saturday to rainy and windy with short srunny patches yesterday and today. So at least it wasn´t boring.

As most people do on holidays like these there has been quite a lot of eating, though I tried to keep it to a sensible level. I managed to skip breakfast yesterday and today and only had one piece of cake both times. At dinner I tried not eating too much but it wasn´t easy because it was delicious if I may say so myself 😉

We had leg of lamb and some venison with roast potatoes and red cabbage. Today we will have what is left of the meat so there is not a lot of preparation involved.

From tomorrow I will be back on my very low calorie diet, so hopefully I won´t have done too much damage.

I really couldn´t restist eating a piece of this ….

So, I might have put on a couple of grams but it was well worth it, and I am going to go at it with renewed vigor, I am sure that it is good to sin now and again as long as you don´t do it all the time. Otherwise you just get tired of it all and just give up.

To end this on a funny note: my daughter told me yesterday about a dream she had the other night. She said that we had been clothesshopping together and that I looked like Kate Moss😂. Everything I tried on fitted me perfectly and she couldn’t find anything! Now what does that mean do you think?

Don’t get me wrong I don’t wanna look like Kate Moss, to tell the truth at the moment I rather look like I’ve EATEN Kate Moss….

But I wouldn’t mind losing enough weight to get a bit closer to normal weight.

I would love to hear your thoughts about this…

Have a great day


Abnehmen und Langeweile…

Also eigentlich geht´s mir richtig gut. Ich komme mit den Kalorien ganz gut hin und es fällt mir nicht halb so schwer wie ich erwartet hatte. Aber mir fällt immer wieder auf, wie schwierig es ist schlechte Gewohnheiten abzulegen. Regelmäßig erwische ich mich dabei, das ich am liebsten zum Kühlschrank gehen würde um mir irgendwas zu essen zu holen. Nicht das ich übermäßig hungrig wäre, aber es ist einfach so das ich sehr oft aus Langeweile esse. Oder als Nebenbeschäftigung. Gerade abends, wenn ich sonst stundenlang am Computer gesessen und irgendwas gespielt habe, standen immer irgendwelche Leckereien griffbereit. Und die hatten es meistens in sich. Nachos mit Salsa-Dip, Schokolade, dann noch was Süßes zu trinken und schon war der Abend geritzt.

Sicher wusste ich das das nicht gerade gut für die Figur ist, aber was soll´s, ein paar Kalorien mehr machen den Kohl auch nicht fett. Ich hab ja eh keine Chance abzunehmen, weil ich schlechte Gene geerbt habe. Bei uns in der Familie haben alle Übergewicht, die Frauen besonders, Mutter, Großmutter, Urgroßmutter, auch während und kurz nach dem Krieg, wo es ja kaum etwas zu essen gab hatten sie alle leichtes bis mittleres Übergewicht. Also wie soll ich da etwas dran ändern? Das ist eine der Fettlogiken, die ich mir immer gerne als Ausrede zu Nutze gemacht habe.

Das Buch “Fettlogik überwinden” von Nadja Hermann hat mir da ziemlich die Augen geöffnet. Ja, es gibt eine genetische Veranlagung dazu, schneller und effektiver Fett einzulagern als andere.Und ja, ich habe auch so gut wie kein Sättigungsgefühl.

ABER man muss trotzdem mehr Kalorien zuführen als man verbraucht, damit der Körper diese als Fett einlagert. Und entgegen der erschreckend weit verbreiteten Annahme das man das Fett nicht wieder los werden kann wenn man zu wenig isst, hilft eine Einschränkung der Kalorienzufuhr sehr wohl beim Abnehmen.

Mein Hauptproblem ist das ich zur Zeit leider kaum Bewegung habe, so das mein Kalorienverbrauch natürlich nicht sehr hoch ist. Meine Knieprobleme erlauben es mir nicht Sport zu machen, schon kurze Strecken zu laufen ist nur mit Krücken möglich. Treppensteigen ist eine Qual und Hausarbeit so gut wie unmöglich. Also verbringe ich leider sehr viel Zeit auf dem Sofa und da sind die Beschäftigungsmöglichkeiten sehr begrenzt. Fernsehen ist ohne eine Nebenbeschäftigung zu langweilig, Lesen tue ich sehr gerne aber kann ich auch nicht stundenlang am Stück weil ich dann müde werde, also habe ich wieder vermehrt angefangen zu sticken. Das habe ich schon immer gerne gemacht und es beschäftigt die Hände und den Kopf. Ich habe festgestellt das das besonders wichtig ist, denn es ist weniger mein Magen als mein Kopf, welcher mich immer wieder in Versuchung führt.

Permanent beschäftigt er sich damit, was man denn essen könnte. Die Mahlzeiten sind natürlich zur Zeit sehr unspektakulär, da ich ja in der Hauptsache Eiweiß zu mir nehmen muss, und bei 500-600 kcal am Tag ist das schwierig. Also beschränken sich die Mahlzeiten hauptsächlich entweder auf Eiweiß-Shakes oder Quark und Fleisch mit ein bisschen Gemüse. Und da ich morgens in den letzten Tagen nur ein Vitamingetränk zu mir genommen habe, ist das schon sehr unbefriedigend.

Also trinke ich Unmengen an Wasser, und versuche ansonsten an was anderes zu denken.

Schwierig, wenn man es gewöhnt ist alle 5 Minuten irgendetwas in den Mund zu stecken. Die einfachste und effektivste Methode das zu verhindern ist ein leerer Kühlschrank und auch alle anderen Verstecke die man so angelegt hat sollten leer sein. 😉

Als ich mich Anfang Januar zum Abnehmen entschlossen hatte, habe ich alle Süßigkeiten die mir selber noch nicht zum Opfer gefallen waren (und das waren einige. Wie die meisten Menschen die sich zum Abnehmen entschließen hatte ich  natürlich auch in den letzten Tagen vorher noch so viel wie möglich in mich reingestopft, und bei der Gelegenheit wohl noch mindestens 2kg zugenommen), meinem Mann zu treuen Händen übergeben. Und der ist was Süßkram angeht fast so gierig wie ich.

Als Alternative habe ich mir mein Hantelset griffbereit am Sofa platziert. Immer wenn ich das Gefühl habe etwa essen zu wollen, mache ich stattdessen ein paar Übungen. Das ist zwar nicht viel, es sind nur 1kg Hanteln, aber besser als nichts, und gleichzeitig überliste ich so den Kopf, der eigentlich nur eine liebe alte Angewohnheit fortführen möchte.

Ich hoffe nur das mir das auch auf lange Sicht dabei hilft meine Essgewohnheiten zu ändern und meine Ernährungsumstellung zu bewältigen.

Wir werden sehen,