As I said before, I am really trying to lose weight. And I think this time it is actually going to work. It´s like there is a switch in my head and it finally klicked.
Maybe it´s the book I´ve been reading, it certainly helped a great deal, and maybe it is the possibility that if I don´t, I might end up in a wheelchair or even die, that made me stronger, but at the moment I am doing really well.
Instead of feeling bad about the things I am not allowed to eat, I try to see it more as a contest. I stick to 3 meals a day, protein shakes being two of them, so I really only have to worry about one meal.
Since 500 cal. a day isn´t really a lot, I am stuck with a bit of chicken, some vegetables, preferably raw, and some curd cheese nicely spiced with some fresh herbs, so, it is a very boring diet. But I don´t mind, it makes it quite easy to stick with it, now wondering about what to eat, or rather not to eat, and my stomach seems to have gotten used to the smaller portions, I don´t feel hungry all the time anymore.
Looks like the positive attitude is working. This is about the longest period of time I lasted on a diet and still feel this good. Usually after about 2 months I would start cheating here and there, sneaking in the occasional snack, and eventually fall off the wagon, so to speak.
But this time, even if, like today, I tried a bit of something I cooked for the rest of the family, I only had half of my dinner and had the other half at night, instead of eating my whole dinner anyway.
So basically I stopped lying to myself. I don´t sneak in the occasional bite if nobody is watching, like I used to. No secret eating when I´m alone. I know it’s important and I am determined to do it.
I still use my app to document everything I eat, especially because I have to keep track of my calories, and it makes life a lot easier. I can calculate my meals and make sure I don´t eat too much, and I can keep track of my protein intake, which basically is the most important bit.
My mother thinks that it is too much hassle, and that I should not do that,she probably thinks I´m obsessive, but for me it is the only way to make sure I don´t eat too much. Because as for most people, trying to estimate my calorie-intake doesn´t work. So my kitchen scales and my mobile phone are my best friends at the moment. Every meal I eat is being weighed and calculated. That gives me the security that I am doing it right.
Eventually, once I´ve lost enough weight and I will be able to exercise again, I will gradually try and eat a bit more, but for the time being, this is the best way to lose weight.
Well, I guess that´s all for now, I might write some more about my journey to a healthier body soon, so
good night folks